Now to explain. I signed multiple contracts a few months ago with a publisher and trilled "I'm now a full-time writer!"
Well, I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to be one. And looking inward (and backward), It seems I never did.
So here it is: I don't have to work. I've done my time with the EDJ 'every day job' for more than twenty-five years. When we moved to this small town some time ago, I was relieved I didn't have to work anymore.
Yes, I'm lucky. Damned lucky. I know there are a lot of talented writers out there who would kill to be home all day and pursue a career as a published author.
So after all those years working, what did I do to pass the time? One thing I did was start to play the Sims. By the time Sims 2 rolled around, I found out there was a neat in-game feature where you could take pictures and write a 'story' to accompany the pictures. Like a graphic novel. Imagine my surprise when I found this was a 'thing', and people had blogs and posted their stories. Cool!
I abandoned writing in my early twenties, so now I could have a little fun with it. So I started a blog, got some readers, and posted my stories.
In late 2010, I wondered if I could take one of the sim stories and turn it into a manuscript. Timeless Heart was born. The hubs kept insisting I submit it. Nah. I'm not a writer. I was just fooling around, having some fun. So for shits and giggles I googled digital romance publishers and finally bit the bullet and submitted it. The story was offered a contract in March 2011. Needless to say, I don't play the Sims anymore.
I didn't expect this. I didn't plan for it. I had no 'goals' in place. So right out of the gate I never thought of this as a career. Or a full-time job. Yes, I thought of it as a hobby. *gasp*
Anyway, parse it whatever way you wish. It is subjective. So for the record, it's not a hobby.
I've read all the stuff on-line written by successful writers telling me what I have to do to be a success just like them. I have to take myself "seriously", think of this as a career or I am doomed. Well, I soon found I was trying to do so much it left no time for writing or living my life and enjoying my 'retirement'.
Flash forward to 2015. I've realized the reason I started doing this in the first place was to have fun. I also realized at this stage of my life, I don't want a full-time job. So I am down-grading myself to part-time/casual worker who does take her writing seriously.
There is a lot going on in my personal life (health issues, etc) that has further led me to this epiphany, in fact, I just pulled a submission from a publisher because I need to slow everything down. I've also cut back on blogging and social media.
Those multiple contracts? I didn't pursue them, the publisher reached out to me. I am very grateful for the opportunity. But I will slowly work on them at my own pace, glad I have the luxury of being home all day and able to take my time. Some days I wake up and say "I don't feel like writing today. Or going on social media." So thankful I have the option.
The bottom line is everyone approaches this is a different way. There is no 'right' or 'wrong' way to write, be published, or anything connected with it.
I am a storyteller who happened to become a published author. I've come a long way in four years, especially in my writing. I am always learning. But the one thing I learned to accept is I will be doing this my way, not what others tell me. For at the end of the day, I do this for me. No one else.
Full-time writer? No. A writer who writes when the mood strikes her, and if the story sells to a publisher, all the better? Yes. Doing this lets me escape the 'everyday grind', not become the everyday grind. It further reminds me why this is called the 'the daily grind' to begin with, because it can grind you down. And stress you out. And if you let it, break your heart.
I refuse to let any of it happen. I like to write this stuff down on my blog to remind myself.
My way. On my schedule.
Happy and relaxing writing~